I’ve heard from many people that having a crush on someone is just a superficial thing, and that feeling of affection will certainly and easily fade without leaving a trace of burden or worry. Unfortunately, it’s the opposite. Truth is, I’m having a hard time sleeping, and in class, I end up daydreaming. Involuntarily, my brain thinks about her all the time.
I would imagine us in that tree- shaded patio: sitting calmly on a granite bench, smiling at each other, chuckling, laughing, hugging, and talking about numerous possible topics. And, if I would increase the dose of color into that imagination, I would see us having a lovely awkward long pause and reach out to kiss and leave signatures on our teenage lips. But, this is but a figment of my imaginative mind, and that would probably never happen…..if I don’t make a move. Actually, this is where the problem lies.
Should I make a move? Or should I not?
“It’s merely a crush. It’s not serious” That is what they tell me again and again. Much to my annoyance, I would reply, “It is goddamn serious!” All these “things” going on with couples are never really fueled and started by the very overused word “love”.
Everything originates from a crush. It is the Jesus of attraction, arousal, relationships, and marriage, and more often that not, everyone becomes dramatically crazy because of this, all because of this embarrassing but cute feeling for someone. But more so, it leaves the enamored with the question:
Should we just stay as friends? Or should I go for her?
Then, every inch of his/her life would be in chaos, thinking and thinking and wondering and imagining and speculating and then even more thinking. Eventually, that person will realize how futile this process of pondering is, and things can only go three ways: (1) He gets the bacon. (2) Someone gets the bacon. (3) The bacon is left to rot. This leads me back to the question: Should I make a move or should I not?
An excellent psychologist would probably belittle such emotion, but I beg to differ because no matter who you are, your world was probably rocked by this insane little thing called, “crush.”
My point is, having crushes is not something small. Even the strongest and toughest human would implode to this fidgety amorous feeling. Up until now, the question enters my mind:
Should I or should I not?
This question probably enters the minds of others who feel the same way as I do. Their friends would possibly tell them to quit and stop thinking about such trivial matter. However, it’s funny because these people most probably once had their lives in splendid topsy-turvydom because of a simple crush.
So, I guess “good luck” is the best thing you could say to anyone going through this stage because we all once had a crush on somebody. In addition, tell him/her to have fun because after all what’s the point of stressing over this “superficial thing.”