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Wheels of the Bus

Wheels of the bus keep going.

July 10, 2014 3:47 pm by: Category: College, Education, Experiences, Features, Global Youth Journal, Lifestyle, Opinion, Singapore, Uncategorized, Voice of the Youth, World Leave a comment

I had just got on the bus when I read my brother’s message, asking me to write something for the Global Youth Journal. I had been meaning to, but I just had not found the inspiration. I felt like I hadn’t been doing much, that I was just setting things up, that I was just starting out, that I wasn’t moving in any direction. It feels that way for skating, for debate, for schoolwork, for research. I feel like I’ve plateaued, and I didn’t know how to get out of it.

Wheels of the bus keep going.

Every time I go on long bus rides, I always feel like I’m wasting my time. Hence, I end up bringing a book to read, or opening my inbox to start replying to emails, or even just getting my phone out to play another of those iPhone games my mom had introduced to me. Staying put and doing nothing is difficult for me. It’s like I always have to be doing something productive, checking something off my list. Otherwise, I feel like I’m getting left behind, like I’m simply not moving fast enough.

How fast can we move?

How fast can we move?

Wheels of the bus keep going.

I’m getting restless. I’m thinking about too many things—how to proceed in my research work, how to land my jump right on ice, how to start cleaning my room up for move-out day, how to prepare dinner when I’m so exhausted from an intensive training session at the rink. I’m thinking about what to cook, what to prepare for tomorrow’s research team meeting, what to do when I get home so I don’t end up wasting the night away. I want the bus to just get to my place already. I stop staring at my phone and look out the window.

Wheels of the bus keep going.

The bus was moving so fast. I might be sitting still, in place, but the bus is just moving, its wheels keep going, its bumpy chairs carrying me to the place I want to go. I stop and do nothing, think of nothing, and I realize how fast the bus is actually moving—for me. It is moving to get me to my place. Heck, I’m not actually stagnant, plateauing; I’m moving with this bus. This is when I realize. In the same way I was playing a game on my phone or reading a book, feeling like I wouldn’t be productive on a bus otherwise, I’ve been trying and trying in all my activities, working and working, feeling like I’m never getting anywhere. I never stop. I never stop to notice how all the little things I do, all the little things you do, all these little things we do that we fall under living through the day keep the wheels of the bus going. I never look up from my book or my phone to notice how, despite feeling like I’m sitting at the back of the bus, frozen in place, I am actually moving. Even when I do not have to do anything on a bus ride, the universe is working its own ways to get me somewhere. At this point, I am filled with gratitude and a newfound patience for things to gradually unfold.

The Singaporean Bus

The Singaporean Bus

As the wheels of the bus keep going.

I realize that sometimes, maybe life does give us breaks—so we don’t drive ourselves insane; so we don’t ever feel like we’re stuck; so maybe and just maybe, we might catch a glimpse of how far we’ve actually come. When it does, we should just take it, and notice the wheels of the bus go.

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Joan is a rising sophomore and member of the inaugural class of Yale-NUS College.  She is currently working on several research projects under the Cognition and Attention Lab.  She is also working on her own independent study of the ontology and expression of the self.  When not working on research, Joan can be found at either the ice skating rink or the dance studio, skating her heart away.

At Yale-NUS College, Joan is the Head of Internal Communications of the Debate Society. She is also the Head of Publicity of the Society of Yale-NUS College Dancers (sYNCD) and the Head of Product Design and Development of the Yale-NUS College Bookstore. Prior to Yale-NUS College, Joan studied briefly at the Hong Kong University of Science and Technology (HKUST) where she was chosen as the lone HKUST student representative in a joint humanities research project with Harvard University. 

Joan is a Chinese-Filipino who finds her home in the Philippines.

 

 

 

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